MY OWN ENEMY

Perfection is what I seek
but isn’t the search so bleak?
My search makes me feel so weak,
Within I’m about to break,
Things aint right,
At least for what’s in and within sight,
I wish I could be at ease,
but the world is no longer one big piece,
Nothing is more impossible than searching that inner peace,
Sirens-like sounds are dominating my mind,
All I can hear is a not so good sound,
I feel like things are getting out of hand,
Nothing is clear anymore in my head,
Everything around me seems to be going round and round.
Is it me alone or it’s the whole wide world?
Am I about to hit the ground?
‘cause I feel balance aint a part of me and am lacking a place to stand.
Look at me now,
No longer in charge of what I thought was mine,
Somebody come and rescue my soul,
If no one comes the enemy will let me drown,
I thought I could manage this on my own,
But my inability has made me the laughing stalk of the town,
Don’t you think I am more of a clown?
I’m missing out on the rhyme,
but I hope this aint a poetic disaster about to come,
so don’t be afraid to sound the alarm,
just in case nothing comes my way but harm,
just in case my mind goes blank,
and articles aint flowing into my blog bank.
Hold on.…is my mind a victim of a prank?
I’m I losing out on reality?
Surprisingly, my slogan says I fear no one,
Yeah, not even one but only God,
No one scares the hell out of me,
But I still aint at peace with the inner me,
I have a new enemy,
Somebody bigger than a whole army,
“But wait a minute….do you know what you are murmuring?”
Yeah…I know…I fear the potential lying within,
I don’t fear that no one is concerned anymore,
I fear that the world does not know,
I fear the one in me is planning a revolution,
Big enough to change my life’s perception,
Just in case you said you didn’t know.
I am my own enemy,
what lies within is more than an army,
I am about to explode,
I am about to positively self destruct as 50 would say,
So stay away,
So that you be safe in case the bullet went stray,
I am the perfect me,
I got potential lying idle within,
I got to sit and allow things to settle
I got to look at the issue at hand from a new angle,
You can do this Steve,
Only if you make that single step out of your cave,
Only if explosion is your crave,
Only then will you know,
The cave darkness that has made your life so low,
Only then will you know that like an eagle you can sow
Come out of yourself and let the seed grow,
Only God can dictate how far you can go.